I ended my night talking shits with Alep till i teared up knowing that things could have been better. With the fact that i still have feelings for that person, life's a torture. Everytime when i say im alright and i'll be okay, its just the other way around.
Yesterday was when i realise alot of things. When letting it all out to Alep and knowing what he said was even right, i broke down. Knowing that he still calls and msges, i have to block the feeling thinking that he's just hopeless. Later that night, i even realise how much my bestfriend loves me when he told me the sweetest things a bestfriend would want to hear.
I need to get a new job.